Pain
I’m so tired of pain, of every persuasion. =(
I keep adding to my list of prescriptions, but none have deadened the pain. The voices are back, a few weeks ago, I lost touch with reality…completely. My husband doesn’t want me to go back to the hospital, so I haven’t brought it up. =/ The fact that he doesn’t want me to go back has me thinking…what if I don’t need it? My voices have been telling me for weeks that everyone thinks I am faking and are growing tired of it and me. Am I faking it? What if I am? Could I fake it? But how can it be fake, when it doesn’t feel fake? When it scares the shit out of me, how can it be fake? But what if it is?
I don’t think I know anything anymore =(