I don’t like much today
I was feeling alright earlier…but now I don’t want to see anyone or anything. My usual kadding is not fun. Everything is pissing me off. I don’t know why, but it is. I’ve been answering the voices with “Like I fucking care?” all evening…or something very similar. I’m having severe number dsylexia…or something. I looked at the computer clock and I saw 1:02am. I looked a few minutes later and it was 8:32pm. I don’t know what the hell that is. Oh, I had a high school friend call me a few days ago, and haven’t called her back. What the hell am I supposed to say when she asks what I’m doing, what I’m up to? Oh, just sitting on my ass most of the time…talking to people who aren’t there?!? Yeah sure. My regular pharmacy doesn’t carry Enbrel ‘right now’ I don’t know what that means…but I called another tribal health pharmacy, further away. The pharmacist told me to call my doc and have him ’switch my meds to the other pharmacy’. So I did, the nurse sounded like I was retarded…explaining in very simple terms that she couldn’t transfer them…but would call in new ones. That’s what the pharmacist told me to tell her when I called. I don’t even care, I’ll be getting it. Tomorrow’s injection was my last one, I thought I was going to have to go without until the pharmacy got some in stock. That would have been LOVELY. The RA part isn’t doing overly well, as it is…can’t imagine going without again. Everything seems stupid to me, right now…I have no patience for anything. I just want to hurt something. ._. But I know I would end up hurting myself more than I could hurt anything else. Stupid RA *kicks*
Well, fingers want to quit typing, so I guess I’m fucking done bitching. I would love to fill pages, but it isn’t up to me.
