http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net Just another Psych Central Blogs weblog Fri, 03 Nov 2006 05:53:41 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I was feeling alright earlier...but now I don't want to see anyone or anything. My usual kadding is not fun. Everything is pissing me off. I don't know why, but it is. I've been answering the voices with "Like I fucking care?" all evening...or something ... http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/11/02/i-dont-like-much-today/ Sometimes I want attention. Sometimes I want to have people around me, even if I don't feel like interacting. Sometimes I want to go away. Sometimes I want to hide. Sometimes I want to be famous. Sometimes I don't have dreams for myself. Sometimes I want to be invisible. Sometimes I want to cry. Sometimes I want a ... http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/10/23/sometimes/ Feeling so bad tonight =(  I don't know what to do.  99% of me just wants to suicide so I won't have this pain.  But there's an annoying 0.1% that doesn't want to, has some kind of hope, I guess.  The other 0.9% is undecided.  Voices are bad for the ... http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/09/16/bad-bad-bad/ I'm so tired of pain, of every persuasion. =( I keep adding to my list of prescriptions, but none have deadened the pain.  The voices are back, a few weeks ago, I lost touch with reality...completely.  My husband doesn't want me to go back to the hospital, so I haven't brought ... http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/09/12/pain/ I should really transfer my journal writings to here...there is much more to them, about me and what goes on. =/ But not tonight...maybe tomorrow http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/08/08/transfer/ It doesn't...chaos is a state of being. There is no order or structure in me, why should there be either in my blog? LOL http://beautifulpain.psychcentral.net/2006/07/21/how-does-chaos-begin/